~H@p| M3rdeKa~

hapi merdeka to all
hv a nice day

but dis yr de countdown....
i wana cry
T.T
i miss da firework!!!!!
T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
den morning miss to watch tv1 pulak
haizzzZZzzzzZZ

now oni i noe 18th floor de wind so big
make my heart lo cool too

n...
i wana apologize here
sry guyzz
for making u guyz worry ytd
reli sry
gomenasai

i will settle my feeling myself de
i reli can do it
trust mi
I CAN!!
^^

好烦！！好烦！！真的好烦！！

最近发生了一些事。。。
虽然不是发生在我身上。。。
可是还是为她感到烦
给一个普通女生来说
一下子发生酱多事
真的很难面对和解决
就好像那时的我一样
很无助
很庆幸的是
她还有班朋友帮助她和安慰她
你一定要坚强！！
加油！
一定可以做到的！！
虽然到现在我还有些阴影
可是我的每一天还过得不错
我很坚强
不让我的眼泪轻易掉下
这就是17岁的我所答应过自己的事
我想我都做到
有时真的很难忍
因为我之前都是个哭包

昨天真的很失态
真的真的很失态
我竟然哭了
我也不知道为什么就是忍不到
而且不是躲起来哭那个。。。
唉。。。

希望她尽快放下这件事吧
怎样也好
考试都快到了
期望你能够专心吧
别为了那些事情烦恼了。。。

我们一起加油！！！

好烦！！好烦！！

T.T

2day pk lehxx
a bit pain...
hahax
jz hurt my hand nia
luckily~

but still pain
y i so careless de
alwiz fall down at da stair de
T.T
haizzZzzzZ

at d opposite~
i cut my hair again
wakaka
so syok nia
but get scold again
muahaha
dis time a bit shorter den last time de
^^

hi av1~
few days din come here n post new blog le~
hahax
a bit lazy nia

dis week a bit normal for mi ba~
(but my life oso damn bored de la
ntg special~wakaka)
dat day thursday went for a shoot...
take so long time nia....
almost 12 hrs...
but i slept few tyme thr
wakaka

most of my coursemate went back hometown dis week...
haiz
y my mom dun let mi stay outside de
T.T
(mayb she oso thk dat im bad gal.wakaka)
but
im reli a badgal
wad to do
muahaha

(sigh...sry for write so many nonsence
cz i reli duno wad to write)

nez tue is my last job before my final exam le
cz
a bit scare liao
but i duno whr to start
haizzz
when i feel dat i will fail somethg
i wun try 2 do it ad de...
haiz
but reli sked
sked i fail all those subjects
sked sked sked
n if reli fail le
i duno whr to take money to resit those subjects...
T.T
since dis course started...
i din reli study for all da subjects
datz y now duno wad to do...
jz
'teng tin yau meng' ba...

Better in Time by Leona Lewis

Hmmmmh
It's been the longest winter
without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See some
how i can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going ,Coming
Thought i heard a knock
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised
that i really didn't knooOooO
wIf you didn't notice
You mean everything(quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah(It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve tooOooh
(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would
remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it(hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything
(quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh
yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile
because i deserve too ooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me
(No more you and me)
This time i let you goso i can be free
And Live my life how it should be
(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes i Will
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
I'm gonna smile
cos i deserve too yes i do
(It'll all get better in time)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Going to smile
cos i deserve too Ooooooh

try to listen dis song , dude~

9s song

n so meaningful~~

so syok ytd~
i slept for almost 10 hrs le~~
long time din slp so much ad...
luckily 2day din work~
datz y can slp till 9
hahax
cz normally i work n study all da time..
no tyme to rest at all..

but 2day sit at home...
a bit sienzz
cz ntg to do
oni sit in front of comp...

mayb i ard use to work at weekend
n study at weekdays ba
datz y cant b too free...

2day din go help my mom
cz she dun let
tmr got work
at centro...
start at 8...
duno till wad time tim...
mayb straight go skool on monday gua~
cz i cant skip class ad...
ard count ngam ngam
if i skip my class agn...
sure my lovely lecturer will gimme 'love' letter ad de~
wakaka

...

别利用我的心软
我不吃这套

我已经下定决心了
你常说我没给到你信心
那你又有给我信心吗？
我觉得很难呼吸
好大压力
不想再这样依你所说
试着去改变自己
逃避逃避逃避!!!!!!!!!

想让自己清醒...

真的好烦!!!!

这几天心情都不好

也不就是为了那件事...

回到家后

就去冲凉

希望能让我更冷静

泡在浴缸里整整一个小时

想了这几天发生的种种

只感觉

好累

真的好累

不知道是精神还是肉体上的累

很想逃避这一切的一切

感情上也好

学业上的也好

都想逃避

这应该就是所谓的人生之弱点吧

好像大哭一场吖!!!!!

无助

actually i noe da answer ad de....
n i oso wad shud i do...
but jz not brave enuf to step 1 foot forward

but 1 thg dat i noe is
i muz settle dis stuff as soon as possible!!!
i cant let it run on my mind for much more longer time ad
i will mad!!!

i jz wana b a good gf...
is it so hard for mi?
i jz try 2 fulfill wad he wants
but his request is getting more n more
even getting harder
itz impossible to chg mi so easily
dis make mi bad mood all da time
cz i was trying my best to do it
but i thk it cant b for now ad

你看得到我打在屏幕上的字，却看不到我流在键盘上的泪

u tot i reli dun care bout eu?

if reli likdat
wad for i accept u?

i reli no idea now
tears drop
not oni u
my heart hurt
agn n agn
jz wana try to trust eu
but u kick mi down fr da high agn
reli sked dis kind of feeling

u say i din gv u confidence
do u thk dat i got dat oso
i hv no at all!
feel empty
feel helpless

when u say dat
jz 1 thg run through my mind
u meant another thg
not oni dat

duno my feeling ryte or not
hope dat im wrong

ya
im not dat good as ur ex
ur ex is nearly perfect
n im not
im jz a simple person

^^

i can feel it...
but i duno whether i shud trust u 100% anot
cz i reli sked
sked being fool agn
but i will try my best to bliv in u
^^

n...
i will +u to diet dis week de!!!
at least 2 kg!!!
+u+u

damn it
later muz finish my program le
if not reli tak sempat
+u+u+u

好烦啊！！

wad shud i do???
i reli duno lo...
wad am i doing is it correct i oso duno
izzit too silly?
haizzzz
i oso duno wad am i talking bout...
'floating' again...T.T

2day work so tired a!!
haizzz

later hv 2 rush my assignment agn
walaoeh!!!
is dis wad i wan???
i oso duno wad am i doing ad....
started missing

B|e3dIng...

keep bleeding
i keep keep bleeding...
but not in love...
T.T
recently da weather was too hot...
make mi bleed nia
haiz
so mafan
n moody


T.T
damn sienZZZzzz a!!!!
wad 2 do....

ytd went 2 watch the dark knight v my bro
da story quite nice
but
b4 da movie...
da advertisment was damn much
waste my 30 min
=.=



den 2day went 2 watch mummy 3...
not reli 9s lo!!!
so 'jia' de
-.-
almost sleep inside thr
cz inside was so cold~~
wakaka

den when sitting in da bus on my way back home...
my head was like 'fishing'
wakaka
keep on nodding nia
=P
paiseh nia~